i dreamt i left my laptop on overnight in the old bathroom. when i woke up and checked it w/ my glasses off, i saw that darien IMed me on two of my sns. he said that he and megumi were having a baby. he told me that their choice for a boy's name was adam and something else i forget. for girls, he gave two other names that were unique and long (i forget those too). darien was afk/idle atm but i IMed him anyway. i said that adam was a good name since twas their first child. and twas good that they also picked out unique names. but what about naming their kids darien, mamoru, or usagi? i checked the laptop again hours later, but my messenger windows were all closed os. so i looked in my convo logs to see if darien Imed me, but i couldn't find it.
i dreamt a black couple were having a baby. the mom's stomach was transparent like glass, so lots of ppl, including the dad, were looking at the baby. its eyes were open. the dad put his hand over the baby's eyes so s/he wouldn't see the real world b4 s/he was born. he then took a couple digital camera pix of it right in its face. then the baby was suddenly out of the mom's stomach, moving its arms around freely.
i dreamt todd's daughter and i went into this room where other kids (about third or fourth grade age) were. but twas like an orgy fest os cuz they were all masturbating or having sex. i covered the daughter's eyes so she wouldn't see.
i dreamt i was watching a movie of golden compass, but twas very dif from the book. lyra met pan in tiger form in a cave. i think lyra might've been the daughter from the dream above.
i dreamt odango had burrowed a hole into her cage bedding and built up a wall up to shield herself from loud noises and bright lights.

i dreamt i opened the dishwasher while twas in the process of washing. and then i needed to restart it, but i didn't know how. i asked mom, but she wouldn't tell me. so i tried pressing the "clean" button. then i had doubts that that was the right one to push. i thought the "clean" button might be for washing the dishwasher, not for washing dishes.
i dreamt i was in the front seat of a car w/ 3 other women. i think two of them were shawna and mom. as we were driving, a couple fat mexican guys without shirts walked by. they looked at us and smiled. i looked away cuz i didn't want to give 'em attention.

i dreamt there were two odangos. one had gray stripes across both sides of her; she either was shedding or pulling out her hair. i think i was trying to catch that one and put it back in the cage.
i dreamt that i found out that my work had hidden cameras in most of the rooms. my co-workers had watched the videos, but they didn't let on. i just picked up on it by the way they treated me--w/ coldness. now each time i went into a new room, i looked around the ceiling/walls to see if any hidden cameras were around.

i think i dreamt that kori was shaved, and she -- no, i dreamt that there was another kori that had her spots ripped off her. there were imposter koris. one was evil. at least one.
i think i had other dreams, but they slipped my mind.
oh, i dreamt mom made that galette!

i think i dreamt that my boss told me to wear more professional pants, but i was already wearing black slacks.
i think i also dreamt that i got maple to work, so i started playing?

i dreamt i had to drive to lodi all by myself. mom, ryan, and dad were there waiting for me. at some point down the road, i had to get out of my car and run back up the freeway or w/e cuz i needed the right ticket in order to pass, and the ticket i got wasn't the right one. when i finally met w/ mom, dad, and ryan, i ordered a chocolate milk shake from an ice cream shop. i really wanted an ice cream that wasn't chocolate, but most of what they had was chocolate, and what wasn't chocolate wasn't good enough. then we had to meet one of mom's coworkers somewhere. i just wanted to go home.

i dreamt y2j posted in my guild's chatterbox, responding to what ryan and i were talking about. he was angry.
i dreamt i was trying to put on a bra, and it was way too small. i had grown too much, and i was not happy. this dream had more stuff in it, mostly about family. but i forgot the other stuff.

i dreamt i was filling out forms in some room w/ other ppl seated at tables. i knew the boy across from me, and i also knew the boy sitting to my right at another table. they were both gay. one of them was cyprian. i introduced them to each other.
i dreamt i was w/ my family in some city. i saw a lake up ahead on the street we were walking on, so i ran to it. big birds were flying one by one off the lake. i told dad to take a pic of me and to make sure he got a flying bird in the pic. so he did. uncle theo was there too, and he also took a pic of me. but then dad or i dropped dad's camera, and the film popped out. luckily it was a new roll of film, so only 1 pic would be lost. dad wanted to try to put the film back in anyway, but i told him to try not to erase the pic we already had. he looked at the negatives, and one of the pix on there was of me when i was 5 years old, even tho the film was supposed to be new.

i dreamt mom parted clothes in her old closet and saw dad had a booze cup hidden there. it had some booze in it. i looked in the china hutch to see if he kept any there. twas empty in there but there was no booze. there wasn't any in the fish tank stand either.

i dreamt ryan and i were sitting on the stairs at the old house, talking. then dad came home at midnight, so we hurried to turn off the lights. but we didn't get them all off in time b4 he came in. he immediately started complaining, since he saw we were up. as i walked up the stairs, i yelled back at him. in the bathroom shower were lots of frogs and fish. i opened the shower door--which was like mom and dad's--and heard them croaking. i smiled and thought how koot they looked. i closed the door and imitated one frog's movement. later i told ryan there were frogs and fish in the shower. but he said he wasn't gonna go look, cuz he wasn't gonna go in the bathroom.
i dreamt i had to sign up for new pu classes. i had to bring a semester report to the office--which was like at a hs--to prove i attended class there b4.

i dreamt i was late for school at the old house. i had to go as a hs student as part of my job. i was complaining to dad that i wasn't gonna do this job for another year. dad was angry that i wouldn't. but then i told him twas cuz i got hw, and then he understood and wasn't so mad. ryan was gonna ride w/ me to skul in the car. i had to get pencils which were all short and unsharpened. i had to lace my shoelaces. what shoes would i wear w/ my purple and pink tie-dye shirt? pink and orange tie-dye tennis shoes matched all right. dad went in the garage to drink. i went in the kitchen. mom came home thru the garage, so dad hurried out, and he entered the kitchen thru the living room door. i went "ha!" and pointed my bunch of pencils at his throat. then mom came in the house; she was home early cuz she had a dr. appointment. she offered to drive me to skul, but i declined. ryan and i went in the garage. i was in the 3rd car garage, which i didn't recognize. it had a door which connected it to the other part of the garage. i wondered why i never noticed as i went thru that connecting door. didn't i always exit into the side yard? i opened the garage door but it stopped opening cuz the cats ran out os. so i had to do it again. i told ryan to get in first, climb over the driver's seat.

i dreamt i was watching anime w/ ryan. in full metal alchemist, ed caught an older guy off guard by pretending to be genuine. then they were on a train together on the way to hell. they passed other trains in this abyss that were packed full of ghosts. ed and the older man recognized another man who was already a ghost in a nearby train. older guy w/ ed said to ed, "i thought he was indestructible" and "some say the only thing that exists are ghosts." i repeated that line aloud, cuz i thought it sounded like something i read in a buddhist book. the guy they knew started to talk to them, and they heard him even tho they were in different trains.
ryan and i watched bleach too. ichigo was eating a foam take-out box full of mochi. i told ryan, "i bet americans would think that's weird."

i dreamt i was flying.
i dreamt aunt debbie told me to lead shawn away from the house for some reason. shawn was younger than me in the dream.
i dreamt a french guy was having a baby. he was snooty tho and didn't care. wasn't happy. he had to pick up his baby from some place. maybe a machine produced his baby os. the mother wasn't there, but she came later.
the dreams were more detailed, but i forgot.

i dreamt i had a friend whose appearance reminds me of gretchen. she had black hair, was skinny, and was about 5'0" tall. sounds kinda like elisa or sabrina, but no, twasn't them. she was starving herself cuz she wanted to lose weight. so thruout the dream, i was telling her that that was the wrong way to go about it. i went into more detail than that, but i'm not gonna repeat myself cuz i have other things to do in waking life. and i also told her that she didn't need to lose weight anyway, cuz she was already skinny. she told me she was 100 pounds. i told her that was light. maybe it was megumi.

i dreamt dot e-mailed me and called me his future gf.

i dreamt i rode the bus to school. in class, i saw ray, my half brother. i asked a classmate if i should tell him he was my half bro. i ended up telling him. i added, "u look more asian than me!" even tho i think neither of his parents were asian, but he had black hair. at some point in the dream, i painted my nose purple, but it wore off later, like it was only sunblock. we had a sub teacher who didn't want any1 to talk. after class, tess talked to the sub. she said, "i know i'm not a teacher, but..." she was giving her a lecture, saying she was too strict os.

i dreamt i was in a class, but i was supposed to go to an interview scheduled at the same time as my class. so when class was over, i was hurrying to leave. but strangely, i was one of the last ppl to leave. (q. was in my class.) a black female classmate (bunny?!) asked me about my books or cds os, and when i tried to talk, all this saliva came to my mouth, and i couldn't speak. then another female classmate came--she was a red head w/ freckles (sera?!). she asked me either about books or cds too. and the same thing happened to me. i tried to spit out the saliva, but i couldn't get my mouth muscles to move. i think i might've managed to say something to her tho. it turned out, she also had an interview at the same place i did. i didn't know exactly where to go, so she lead me to where it was. it was in the same big building that we were in. her interview was scheduled after mine, but the time slot for mine already passed, so i wondered who would go first. on the way, we passed a police officer and ethan.

i dreamt chloe put a curse on kori. she said that if i didn't get kori's collar off in 30 days, chloe would skin her. i worried about what to do, cuz i didn't wanna take her collar off. chloe ended up shaving her bald b4 the 30 days were even up. i still petted my shaved kori, and i could still see the heart in her.

i dreamt there were 2 and a half pot stickers in the bathtub. i tried flushing the half pot sticker down the drain, which was a big hole with sucking power. it came back. so i had to pick 'em up w/ paper towels os and put 'em in the garbage. i think a couple ppl mighta helped me.

i dreamt mom made ryan popcorn, but she didn't let me know about it, so i didn't get to have any. so i told her to make me popcorn and not to let ryan have any of it.
i dreamt i went to the zoo. forgot what happened.
i dreamt i was in a video store os, and i saw two escaflowne movies. it seemed that the one i saw b4 was the 2nd movie. so i wanted to get the 1st. after i bought it tho, i was worried that i already saw it.

i dreamt i looked in my aim logs and saw cloud talking to a bot. at first, he just told the bot to talk to sns that were enemies of mine. then he told it to talk to MY sns like kankeinai or w/e. the convo was dated the day i msged him on myspace. i was gonna sign on that kankeinai sn to see if the bot would still msg me even tho it was weeks ago since cloud gave the bot my sn. if the bot did msg me, i expected to be flooded/punted.
i dreamt i went to an apartment where some little girls were. they wanted me to trace sm pix w/ them using an overhead projector like i did at elisa's house in 6th grade. i said i would but on another day cuz i had to go now. i said "tomorrow at 2pm, okay?" that gave me enough time to get dressed and eat lunch and do some internet stuff. ryan was with me. as he and i were leaving, there were two older boys, who i guess were the brothers of at least one of those girls. one asked me to marry him. he was a druggy tho. i told him, "uh, we'll talk about it later."

i dreamt i looked up pink gift boxes on gaia, cuz i got one. there were surprisingly not many for sale. maybe around 5. one was selling for over 23k. the rest were all under 1k. so i bought all the ones under 1k and began to sell my collection for 1 gold under the highest price, which was like 23,464.

I dreamt I had a baby. The hospital took it from me early and hooked it up to a machine that made its head hard like a computer hard drive was put in. The skin on the outside was still very fragile and delicate. I was holding the baby close to my chest, and its face smeared; one eye got pulled closer to its ear. The baby talked like a robot. I hated what the hospital did to my baby. I definitely never wanted to have a baby in a hospital again. I was forced to go home without it. It was put in a white plastic cylinder container. I left, but got to see it from the street above from a sewer hole os. I said something like, "Bye baby," as I looked down on it. I wondered if it could hear or recognize my voice through the plastic. Drops of water fell onto the container--either rain or my tears. When I came back for it on another day, its face was no longer messed up.

I dreamt I was telling Megumi that she should cyber with Darien. She said she didn't like cybering. I said, "Don't do it for you. Do it for him. It'd mean the world to him. He cybers with strangers all the time, but wishing he was doing it with you." I was serious. Megumi said, "You're very thoughtful."

i dreamt restricted e-mailed me some long e-mail.
i dreamt ~ talking to ryan about dad's drinking prob at the old house. i pulled him into my room so we could talk without dad eavesdropping. but even tho we talked about it in my room, dad ended up peeking around the corner of my doorway and listening anyway.

i dreamt of a strange brown white-spotted flying bunny. it flew up and took a nose dive into the ground. then it flew around me and stopped so i could pet it, which i did. i wondered how odango would react to it and what i should name it.
i dreamt ryan and i were fighting together against some boy. we were winning cuz twas 2 against 1. later, the boy fought alone w/ ryan. they went into a pool, armed with weapons that looked like giant throwing stars.
i dreamt my family and aunt ruth were around a table. dad was telling ruth that i was taking an addictions class. i said "that was 2 or 3 years ago." i told ruth my real classes. one i told her about was a feminist studies class. dad asked what feminism was. i said: "sexism is when you don't treat both genders equally. feminism is when you believe in treating both equally." ruth listened, but dad stopped; he lost interest and put on some headphones os.
in another scene, i was reading something by sandra lee bartky.
in another scene, i was narrating a movie. there was a woman and her daughter, lost in the city. i said, "ppl will see this mother and daughter and treat them like two little girls cuz they see women as uncapable of taking care of themselves." then the woman hid behind her daughter.
i dreamt i was filling out paper work for some doctor. i signed my name badly, and i wondered if they'd think i was an imposter.
i dreamt i got hacked in gaia. i was anxious to change my pass, but i was also in a hurry to go somewhere (maybe to bed?), so i didn't get to.

i dreamt i was on some vacation w/ family. it was somewhere south but high in the mountains. sometimes there was snow.
i dreamt i was playing a video game like zelda oracle of ages. i had to warp between the past, present, and future. i was getting confused about which was which.
i dreamt brandon was now the first grade ta.
i dreamt that i went to use a public washroom, and the stall i went into had two pieces of poop on the top of both sides of the toilet. the poop was light gray and looked like it came out of a tube of whip cream or easy cheese. i took some toilet paper and pushed both pieces of poop into the toilet. after i got out of the stall, i heard that those pieces of poop were actually daughters that girls aborted.
i dreamt i was wearing my sm outfit, but the bow was messed up. one side was too large, and the other side was hardly there.

i dreamt i was writing smz. i had elisa as sailor sag, and i was gonna have her hair black and shoulder length like hotaru's. then i wondered if i should have madelena as a sailor senshi. since her b-day was in june, she'd have to be sailor cancer. i didn't have a sailor cancer yet in the dream. but then i thought her identity as queen lily should be discovered in the same ep that twas discovered that she's a sailor senshi. i wasn't sure if i wanted the other chars to find out so soon.
i dreamt i was in a shower, and i was filling the water all the way to the top, above my head. ryan told me to do it in order for something to happen, but i forget what that something was. anyway, it didn't work. and i told him so. then the dream turned into anime. some detective entered the dream, maybe investigating why i filled up the shower and if i was in any danger. and there were two anime girls fighting behind a curtain. when the curtain was pulled away, it was a joke cuz it looked like the two girls were kissing and pulling their clothes off. one girl stood up and pulled her shirt around her breasts in indignant embarrassment. i think both girls had short, straight blue hair. then someone cast a spell on one of those girls (or maybe a dif girl?) to calm her down os, and then that girl turned into two little girls who both fell asleep instantly on the cloth overhang of a shop. reminded me of the sanrio little twin stars.

i dreamt some1 was driving the van into the garage, where i was. the person asked if i had dark skin, maybe cuz my middle name means dark beauty. but it was as if the person only knew me online, since they should've seen me right there and been able to tell the color of my skin.
i dreamt my family was gonna go to aunt debbie's house. but then mom and dad decided to go to a brewery. ryan and i stayed home of course.

i dreamt i was helping exe. she read a book to me, then took a comp quiz on it. it might've been a nate the great book, but not a chapter book. she wasn't doing well on the quiz cuz she couldn't tell what the english words meant. she pointed to the word "nate" and asked what it was. i said, "que es el nombre de el nino?" and then later she pointed to "cat," but i accidentally said "neko" instead of "gato."

i dreamt that svhumper was my bf. and some guy wanted me to guess his name. i was thinking rumplestilskin, but that wasn't it. i don't remember the details.

i dreamt i was watching chii in p.e. class, on the track. syaoran was her bf, and he ran far ahead of the other students to protect his partner. but his partner wasn't chii for the assignment. in another scene, chii plopped her head down onto a bed, where another lady was laying. the lady was medusa. in another scene, i became chii, but my hair was brown, shorter, and in pigtails. i met some a bird in a tree on the way home from school. it tilted its head back and forth at me, so i copied it. the bird turned into a human. she introduced herself, but i couldn't understand her name very well. she said it meant "feather." so i asked, "tsubasa? hare? hane?" but she said no to all of those and repeated herself. "ide?" i asked. she repeated herself again: "aide." me not being able to say/hear her name well was proof that i wasn't one of her kind. i walked on. there were more bird people. they asked my name. i said "aide," pretending to be that girl i met b4. they asked me to prove it by letting my hair down. so i took out the scrunchies in my hair. i think i was supposed to turn into a bird if i was really a bird person. but since i wasn't, it shouldn't have happened. but the dream ended there.
i dreamt that godawful ppl were viewing my site again, but somehow one contacted me to tell me that they weren't going to sign the gb this time; instead they would just talk about (criticize/ridicule/make fun of) my site on the godawful forums, so i couldn't see. i typed a complacent/smug response to them.

i dreamt my family and i were going to take a short trip. i think we were going to a restaurant in CA and meeting some more family members there. dad called to make reservations, and kept pointing out that he wanted it to be lunch in the afternoon, and afternoon for dad meant 2pm. twas 1:30pm and time to go. i was eating some cheetos at the comp in the kitchen, but i kept in mind that i'd be going to the restaurant soon, so i knew i shouldn't eat too many. on my yahoo bl, i saw that darien was on. i was just about ready to go, and i told mom that i was. she was sitting in the driver's seat of the van in the old garage and had the engine running. but then i just remembered that i forgot something. without telling her, i ran back in the old house. dad was still in there, and he didn't seem in a hurry to go anymore. i didn't know why. i ate 1 or 2 more cheetos. i saw on the comp that yim automatically put up an auto-response for me which was something like "seeing the stars." darien had an a/m up too. his was a video in the size of a 50x50 icon that showed up by his name. "go away" ran marquee across it, then it showed darien at a pool. it looked like he was a life guard, cuz he was standing high above the pool while the others swam. in the next scene, i was running in the backyard, and i was getting hot running, so i shed the brown coat i was wearing and just left it on the ground and kept running. i ran all the way to that pool that darien was at. i asked to see some bag that i guess i gave him in the past; each side of the bag had something i wrote to him on it. he let me see it. i read the notes. they were all lovey dovey things, but i forgot what any of them said. i thought about telling him, "back then, i wouldn't care what your voice sounded like or what you looked like. i loved you just the way you were." but i didn't say that. instead, i said, "was that away message to me?" he said yes. i said, "you know, if you want me to go away, you can just block me." he didn't say anything. he was standing to my right, and i was sitting on the ground, against a wall. to my left was some rumbling machine. i pointed to it w/ a shakey hand and said it was lucifer. (i meant the devil, not luis.) darien went over to it. it might've been the thing darien was standing on top of when he life guarding or w/e. i got up to leave, but then i remembered that i was still signed in yim. i wanted to log off before i left on that trip to the restaurant. suddenly i was in a room full of comps, and i was signed into three of them. so i had to log off all three. i noticed my yim bl no longer had darien on it, so i figured he took my advice and blocked/removed me. but now there was some stranger on my bl with an sn like "lkkshglhdsalgkh." i wondered if it was darien in disguise, but i didn't bother to check how long it was online, cuz i was in a hurry to go. ryan was in this comp lab too, so i told him to hurry up and go cuz mom was gonna be mad we were taking so long. then we finally left, and got in the van. mom started driving. we went on a road that was like a ramp going down. then we saw many cars backed up on this ramp and on the roads below it (freeway?). it was going to take us a long time to get to the restaurant; we'd probably be late.

i dreamt that dad cleaned my room by getting rid of a spider under my desk. but i still saw it there. then it turned into a moth under a pile of clothes on my floor. i got toilet paper from the bathroom to pick it up and throw it away. i noticed dad also put some of my clothes back in my closet--the ones i was planning to wear today. i didn't really appreciate that. plus he didn't put them back in order.
i dreamt ~ speed grapher. i wondered what'd happen next--how saiga would treat the cop who kidnapped him and if kagura loved saiga.

i dreamt i was in a house like grandma's. in the family/living room, a bunch of spiders came down from the ceiling from their webs, all in a line. i told ryan to smash 'em after i knocked down each web w/ my jump rope stick. he did, except one got away and went back up on the ceiling in a place we couldn't get to it. i accidentally stepped on one, but i just took off my socks later. in another scene, i was in my bedroom, and there was a door connecting from my room to the outside like darien's room. so some adult lady came in that door, asking if i had a hair dryer she could use. i showed her to my bathroom, which i was sharing w/ mom as if my room was actually a hotel room. mom's hair dryer was there, so i let the lady use hers.
i dreamt i was in the 4th grade classroom, helping kids. they were prepping for the gre.
i dreamt mom was telling ryan ~ the horny toad in yellow brick road.
i dreamt i ate tea and nuts and milk and cookies, and they didn't go well together.
i dreamt i went to the library w/ dad and ryan. yellow was there, but i pretended not to see her. i asked the ref lady for books by the author i was planning to get book(s) from today. ref lady told me that i'd find books by him in "myers 3."
i also dreamt about kids speaking "smanish." i forget the details.

i dreamt that dad drove off from the old house, saying, "yay! i'm gonna buy some booze!" even tho his license was suspended. after he got back home, i lectured him not to drink. i was saying stuff like, "if i can refrain from violence, you can refrain from drinking!" i don't remember much of what else i said or his response. but i do remember that at one point, i was talking to him while he was downstairs and i was upstairs, and his neck extended really long so that his head came to the upstairs area to look at me. after my long speech, i went in the kitchen where he was and told him to throw out that cup of booze. and he did. i said, "good. you just made one small step, but every little bit helps" as i walked into the living room.

i dreamt we had a dog that resembled one of noobert's dogs (the yellow one). dad carried it in from the back yard to the front os. he asked me as he walked through my bedroom (which was like grandma's guest bedroom), "why don't you do this?"
in another scene, i looked in the old garage, and the librarian's jeep was parked on the right side, covered in yellow leaves. i had to drive somewhere, so i opened the garage door. it went up slowly. dad said twas warped from the freezing temps. out in the street was a lit up arrow that pointed either to our house or to charles court.
i dreamt that clef imed me but i didn't get to reply b4 he signed off.

i dreamt restricted e-mailed me again b4 i even replied to her.
i dreamt i was looking for a sm cd to play. i came across a book that had a lot of large sm stickers in it.
i dreamt that ryan and i got got free gallons of milk. i hurriedly finished mine over a period of days cuz i didn't want it to spoil. ryan wasn't in a rush tho. he had one full gallon and a little remaining of the other gallon left. he shook 'em about, and they appeared to be a little curdled. i had a little left of mine too, but not that much. mine just tasted sour.

i dreamt i was a student in a classroom that was either grade 3, 4, or 5. i was still the same age as i am now tho. i made friends with a few girls. one was named shayna. i forget the names of the other two. i think i made friends w/ a boy too, and he was like kyle m. i think the girls (and me) had a crush on him, but he was being a jerk. we were all talking (about darien) and eating lunch for a long time in the cafeteria, and i was worried that our class would start again w/out us. eventually we left. kyle and the three girls went a dif way than i did, but we both ended up at the same classroom. and i asked kyle when i saw him, "oh, you have this class now too?" it was kinda like period classes even tho we were at an elementary school. he said yeah. i was new, so i didn't really know what to do. in class, the teacher wanted us to assemble packets of papers from some cubbies, so i did that to the best of my ability. then he passed out another paper that looked like a train os. and then he wanted it quiet in the room cuz he was gonna read a book. i thought he was gonna read it to the class, but he just read it silently to himself. i got up to staple my packet. the staples were small and didn't work the first two or three times i tried. it finally worked tho on the 3rd/4th time, so i went back to my desk as kids were singing some class song that the teacher told them to sing. the girl to my right was asked to read from the textbook she had, so she opened it up and just read the front and back pages which had kids' names in them from when they used to own them. i saw mine, and i said, "look! that's me! graduated in 1996!" i was gonna explain that i was a time traveler, but i think they already assumed that.
in the next scene, i was at a comp in the room, trying to assemble all my recent darien dreams and convos to send to the e-mail addies of those 3 girls and kyle cuz they wanted to see 'em. i was trying to put them all in order in a microsoft word doc. i was having trouble finding them all tho, and twas taking a lot more time than i anticipated. i was also dumping some sandy clay stuff out of some fancy tin for some reason that was on my desk. i told the girl to my left to get me something from the shelf or cubby (maybe water), but she said, "i'll get it for you after you get some work done." i said, "i AM getting work done!" then i had to get up from the comp and leave the room for a minute for some reason--i guess to get an AA battery and a news clipping about either ryan or y2j. i was gonna put that in my microsoft word doc too. when i came back, my comp was turned off. i turned it back on. then some adult guy (not the teacher but maybe the janitor) was hovering around, so i covered my battery/news clipping w/ my left hand. the girl to my right said, "it's no use. he's not gonna go away." the man said something like, "you're not supposed to be doing those kinds of things on the computer, grace." i said, "i'm not a kid. i'm 22 years old, and i can do w/e i want on the comp. maybe i can't on the SCHOOL comp, but i can do w/e i want on my home comp! and grace isn't even my name." he said, "you ever think that ray isn't MY name?" i said, "i don't care what your name is!" and so i turned back to my comp and opened mic word and recovered my darien document, saved it, and e-mailed it to myself so i could work on it at home.

i dreamt i missed the early saturday night anime at the old house. twas 11:30pm. i tried turning on the tv to watch bleach, but i thought twas the wrong ep. or maybe twas taped, and i was trying to play it back, and twasn't working.

i dreamt that i was talking to megumi on aim. we were talking about darien and my zodiac test. i wanted her to take my latest one since it asked u to rate urself on the traits instead of just say yes or no to them. i sent her the personality descriptions of aries and gemini as examples but didn't tell her that they were aries and gemini. i then looked 'em up on google to make sure that none of my entries had the descriptions labeled. i found one fauxreal gj entry with 'em, so i went to make it f-o, but i was in the wrong gj account, so it didn't work. i didn't switch accounts by the time the dream was over. she never took the quiz either. the last part of the dream was her sending me the current convo she was having w/ darien on yim. darien was saying things like: "don't talk to me unless it's not about sada. she has nothing to do with me. i usually don't find her obnoxious but sometimes she's bothersome." megumi was being her usual jealous and insecure self. i had other stuff to say to megumi typed out in notepad, but i was copying and pasting it to her slowly. i didn't get to paste it all to her b4 the dream ended.

i dreamt i was at a house or motel or some building. behind it was a long backyard os with a forest at the end. i ran to it. there was a line of trees with trunks like an upside down V. i was tempted to crawl under them but didn't for fear that i'd harm the trees or the trees would harm me. in the forest, i met a bunch of teen guys who talked to me. i think they were all brothers. one or more had a personality like seaton. we went to an indoor room where i asked him his age os, and he wouldn't answer my question(s). i talked about nonconformity as i sat backwards in my comp swivel chair. then the room changed into being outside, and i jumped on the chain link fence and swung around on it back and forth for fun. then i flew away, flapping my arms, back toward the building. inside, someone told me to talk to a sailor. so i opened a cabinet and picked up a flat metal sailormoon figurine and talked to it as if she were a phone. ppl in the room were watching and listening. after i got off the phone w/ sailormoon, i told the ppl, "he told me to talk to a sailor, so that's what i did." then i took a curved metal wire thing from the cabinet and said, "moon tiara magic!" i kept the wire thing tho, and i ran out of the room w/ it to the front yard, and then i took flight again. i was having trouble going high tho. there were more and more tall guys around, and i could barely fly over their heads. i went back to the building to return that wire thing. then i flew again in the direction i was going. i ended up in another building--this one was a tall one, and me and some other ppl were looking out the windows of it. and those other kids were in line to go out the windows and fly away. one pushed another out, and the kid who got pushed out started to fall but then instinct kicked in, and s/he started to fly. i flew out too.

i dreamt dad was mad at me for something i did to ryan and didn't trust me around him again. he didn't even like me having pix of ryan. i hoped this was a dream so i could wake up and twouldn't be so.

i dreamt i was digging in a toy box, trying to find something to play with. i found a toy race car w/ a big 5th wheel sticking up next to the right side of the driver. i rolled the car on the floor and turned it on its side to use the 5th big wheel, pretending it was turning the corner of the race track.
i dreamt i was looking thru falling out. at the end, it said something like, "ah! i can't take it writing all this love stuff!" but i think i had to turn it in to my teacher, so i crossed it out lightly and put it in parentheses.

i dreamt the 1st grade sensei asked me to play with some kids. but i didn't get there in time to do it.
i also dreamt ~ shawna, but i forgot what happened.

i dreamt i saw darien on aim and yim, i think.
i dreamt mom, me, and ryan (i think) were at the grocery store. she wanted to buy some chapstick. i wanted her to get the 3 pack that came w/ the green one cuz the green one was my fav. but she wanted the 3 pack that came w/ the brown one cuz the brown one was her fav. so i let her get the one she wanted. i'd try out the brown one and see if i liked it.
i dreamt i was walking to my new house. some teens or pre-teens were messing around in my front yard. one was going under the garage door as it was closing. i told 'em to get outta there. they ran away, but one girl muttered a curse (witch's kind) at me. later i wondered if her curse was working, but i forgot what happened to make me think that it was.

i dreamt i was writing a book ~ a girl who gets a note saying "sakusha, i want to meet you." it was from a stranger named tayana, which was the last name of mamoru in my dream. i had a comic drawn on almost every page of the notebook. i drew sakusha happily skipping to tayana's house/apartment (very cute). but then when they finally met, all they did was sit next to each other at a table and barely said anything to each other. he was indifferent and had an evil aura about him. he was kinda like satan. sakusha was disappointed. the dream shifted in and out between me writing about sakusha and me being sakusha.
then in the next chapter, sakusha went to school. she noticed that tayana was in her 1st period p.e. class, along with kyle, who she also had a crush on. but she liked tayana more even tho he wasn't very friendly when they met in the last chapter. she compared the two guys to each other. they were both tall and had SM supplies. haha. there were some other similarities, but i forgot 'em. one difference was that kyle had brown hair, and tayana had black hair with red highlights like robin. when i wrote the next chapter, i wanted it to be second period p.e. class, but then i remembered that the first period i had already written was a p.e. class.
in a chapter after that one, sakusha and tayana met again. they didn't know they were going to meet there again, but they did. even tho twas tayana's house/apartment, it had other ppl there, and the place was more like a classroom os than a place to live. sakusha and he sat at the same table they sat at b4, but in opposite seats. sakusha asked why he wanted to meet her if he didn't seem interested at all. he said that when he found out she was a japanese girl, he was no longer interested. he said something like, "how could i marry a japanese woman?" os like he was either racist or it wouldn't be allowed by someone else--family or gov. sakusha told him, "you should've known that i was japanese because my name is japanese." (and ironically, so is his! i didn't think of that in the dream tho.) sakusha learned that he was an editor for a magazine she sent one of her poems to. he was an arrogant one; he said that whoever wrote that benicia poem left out an important sentence, so he didn't approve it. i also somehow knew that he typed in proper capitalization. sakusha told him that she was the one who wrote the poem. he was surprised since the author wasn't sakusha. but sakusha said, "i have multiple pen names. i also have over 400 aim sns." :-P but first she accidentally said "over 200" and then corrected herself and said "over 400." he made kinda a big deal about it and said something like, "i thought u said over 200?" and she said, "i did, but the truth is that i actually have over 400." i guess he thought that the first one was the truth and the second was a lie. i'm not sure if sakusha still liked the guy or not, but i definitely found him irritating by this point!

i dreamt i was hacking in tibia. i went to the hardest boss in the game, which was like a bunch of little snakes making up one big blob that almost filled the enitre room. the boss was asking some religious riddle. mr. kakashka from hey arnold was there w/ me, trying to answer the riddle, but since he wasn't a moral man, he failed. i killed the boss in one hit. ryan then wanted the hack too, so i tried to get it set up in his account. but then when i played him, he was getting pked and had to run from a mob.

i dreamt i was on vacation w/ my family and aunt debbie. it was debbie's 1st time coming alone to visit us. grandma called her on the phone to tell her how proud she was that debbie was driving around in that big van all by herself. grandma and debbie were younger in the dream, but not too young. debbie was like in her 30s or 40s. we just got back from some excursion, and now we returned to the bare walled room which we were all sleeping in. it was going to be our new house. debbie said that if we needed help persuading dad ~ interior decorating, just call her. she added, "btw, i like your speckled [faux finish?] walls." at the old house, i guess. she prolly said that cuz she was afraid her 1st line was offensive; i thought it was. i asked debbie if she'd like to do community service w/ us. she said yeah. i looked thru a packet to show her info ~ the one we were gonna do. it turned into a yearbook for that town. i said to ryan, "look at these stupid senior pix. it has pix of a room. and you can hardly see the senior's face." the room the senior girl was in was fancy, complete w/ a chandelier. ryan took 3 pix of me against the bare wall for no reason. i posed anyway. i was wearing my tie-dye shirt. then we all went to some gardens inside a building. ryan turned into a little girl. i held his/her hand. we had to do a partner activity with a metal batton. ryan wanted to be my partner. but then this other girl came over, whom i knew. maybe she was christine. she was taller than ryan of course, and so i thought twould be more appropriate for me to do the activity w/ someone my own height. so i paired up w/ her, and ryan paired up w/ another little kid.

i dreamt colleen and i were at tile harbor. we were both facing tile river, but there was some guy and his friends over there, and he kept looking at me and seeing that i was looking at him. so i turned to face colleen and told her about it. then i saw the guy coming over from the corner of my eye, so i started talking about stuff like anime. the guy told colleen, "you don't watch enough anime." colleen asked, "how do u know?" the guy must've been a stalker. he wasn't colin tho. might've been some1 like chris rotten.

then the dream shifted to watching an anime dvd at colleen's house. she was worried it was gonna be subtitled tho. i played it. it had sabrina in it. she said "do itashimashite" as she got out of the car. i think it should've been "arigato" cuz someone opened the door for her to get out. i think the rest of the dialogue was in jap too and not even subtitled. so i restarted it and selected english. this time, sabrina still said "do itashimashite," but then she started speaking english after that.

my last dream was being in someone's house. this family was poor. the mother told her child that she needed a minute alone os. the mother went into the kitchen and wiped down the stove furiously to let out her anger. there was some man there w/ me, and we were observing the scene. i told him that i'd rather kill someone than take out my anger on an inanimate object. then i thought of who i'd kill. alyssa came to mind first.

i dreamt i was in a house w/ another person. but we got separated. my partner got locked in a room os. but there were spirits in the house, so i wanted to leave asap even if i had to leave my partner behind. then some new family moved into the house, and then i found out that *i* was a spirit, cuz the old lady of the family was the only one who was in tune w/ the spirit world enough to see me. i asked her to open the door so i could leave; i guess i couldn't just go thru the wall. she did it. then i ran as far as i could through an empty field, and then to the edge of a forest where two groups were at war. the right side was throwing poison darts at the left side, and some of the darts hit me, and i felt the pain but not the effects of the poison, altho i was worried that i soon might. i ran to the left side since they weren't throwing darts at me. i told them that i was running from spirits. the grp agreed to come w/ me as i ran from the spirits. we went inside a house--might've been a homeless shelter, since they were homeless. a young boy from that group was wearing a black sweater w/ a multi-colored design on it. i said i had one similar to it.

i dreamt that restricted said something like "*sigh* another long debate." i only saw the 1st line cuz i didn't bother to open the mail; i was too busy to be bothered.

i dreamt i was at a restaurant w/ my family. aunt agnes and uncle theo were there too. they were already all seated at the rectangular table. i went to the empty chair at the head of the table, which had some pastry in its meal place. agnes told me not to eat it tho cuz it was hers or theo's. i guess this restaurant was like a buffet, cuz i had to walk somewhere to get a drink. and we also might've only been eating sweets, cuz i wanted to get water or milk. first i went to the water, but the plastic cups were all wet like they might've been used b4. i filled one w/ tap water, but then decided i didn't wanna take a chance on the cup. plus the water was warm. so i dumped it and instead got some milk. the milk wasn't very cold either, so i had to get some ice for it. the ice cubes were sharp and red tinted like blood. then there was this guy in my way, and he wouldn't let me leave to go back to my table. he wasn't an authority; just some customer who was trying to be annoying. so i fought him and changed channel. i moved to the area of the restaurant where my table was (w/ my drink?) and then had to cc back cuz my family was in that channel i was just in.

i dreamt i was in a school setting (spanish class?), but all the ppl in the room were ppl i knew online, including enemies, i think. the teacher had a bunch of quotes on the overhead projector. it might've been my quotes page since there were quite a few of my quotes on it. but instead of the quotes saying "-me" after 'em, they said "-janis." i don't think anyone mentioned to me that they saw my name, but i planned to tell 'em i changed/would change my name os.

i dreamt lelouch and i had similar watches. we both put our wrists together to compare them, kind of like saiga and kagura did in speed grapher. i asked lelouch if we could get married os. i awaited his response on e-mail. instead i just got mail from godawful ppl. one accused me of banning him from his own e-mail os. another sent me a convo (i think w/ me) in which she admitted she was only 8 years old. restricted saw the convo too tho (i sent it to her?), and she said that the girl wasn't 8 account of where she lived. i asked, "so no kids live in _________?"

i dreamt we were looking in a house. it had 4 bedrooms. two were small and both its rooms and walk-in closets were connected to each other. i suggested to ryan that i get the one w/ the lower ceiling cuz it'd stay warmer. he should get the other side. but then i later thought he should have the bigger 3rd bedroom. we went to check it out. it ended up being more like a green house than bedroom.

i dreamt twas halloween. we were living at the old house. i was out in the backyard. nynako came out from under a bush, and i noticed she had two bloody spots on her fur. kori came out of the bush next. she looked fine when i first saw her, but after i brought her into the garage, and she rolled around on the car next to kero, i saw LOTS of bloody spots on her. but she must've not been in pain, cuz of all her rolling around. i thought maybe nyanko's blood rubbed off on her. the two cats either got into a fight, or nyanko was injured by a human. i wanted to bring nyanko into the garage to protect her from those evil humans, but i wondered if she would let me get near her.

i dreamt about y&r, but i only remember one scene of it: jack was in the athletic club, pretending to be conspiring w/ some mob guys. they spotted an old mexican woman sitting down at at table. jack told the guys to let him handle her, since he had a talent for charming women. they allowed it. so jack went over the woman, sat down at her table, and started talking to her. she had a double chin. she asked if jack knew michael and lauren, cuz they were both dead now. i think she was the mother of someone who married into their family.

i dreamt cloud changed his default myspace pic to an anime girl w/ subtitles under her that read "kagura is too busy to talk" os.
i dreamt i was in the old kitchen, and ryan was watching a gameshow on tv. the fat jason i knew from school was on it. i told ryan, "i think that's the jason i knew from high school."
i dreamt i saw pallapalla on one of the manga family trees right next to the sailor starlights. i wondered what she was doing there. the other amazon quartet folks weren't there w/ her. then i dreamt that i woke up from that dream and checked the family tree again, and she was really there! i also dreamt that i was trying to read some of my japanese sm mangas. i had tried b4, cuz there were penciled-in hiragana characters in the speech bubbles. i think i got some wrong b4 tho, so i was correcting 'em. then i said to ryan that i couldn't wait til i got the stars mangas in english, cuz then my collection would be complete!
i dreamt that i got fish bait in gaia that could actually be used in the aquarium.

i dreamt ryan had blond hair, longer than tis now, but not as long as shoulder length. the tips of his hair was the colors of the rainbow, and at the end of the strands were different colored beads. i wanted to take a pic of his hair, but he got rid of the hair dye and everything b4 i could.
i took pix of other stuff tho, and my camera film was done after 40-50 pix. so then i had to develop it. i asked mom where we could do it. i wanted to do it at the store that would automatically give double prints, but it'd cost more $.
mom read part of one of my stories. twas a cross between fall out and smz. she saw my drawings that i had w/in the story. she said that lily looked like kazari. i said that's cuz they were the same person, and i explained that in sm, the sailor senshi looked like their human forms even tho the evil ppl weren't supposed to recognize them.
i also had to pick a doctor to go to. dad was gonna call 'em to set up an apt.

i dreamt that clef said he wasn't coming to gaia anymore cuz he found a new forum site he liked better. i wanted to hurry and tell him about varus, cuz that was my next choice for where we should/could chat.
i had another dream, but i forgot it as soon as i remembered it. oh, i remember now! i think ryan cut off the hanging tan tassels that we braided. but he didn't just cut off the braided parts. he cut off the whole tassel bunch and brought it out of the den to show me or mom or dad os.